There was a time in my life that was just about me. I ran when I wanted, ate when I wanted, did what I wanted, and slept when I wanted. I owned my schedule, thrived in my routine, was in control of my world. I know this sounds very self-centered but it was true.
Now, almost three years after having kids, I sometimes feel lost in my life. It took me a while but I have accepted and embraced my new role, relinquished whatever control I thought I had. Don't get me wrong, being a mother has been one of the best experiences of my life, but I have managed to lose myself along the way. And yes, I will take ownership for it, for the most part.
So, as I think about what I need, I realize running used to keep me grounded (gaving me a chance to clear my mind, do something that was truely for me). I want to read the stack of books I have bought but haven't got around to reading, and of course blogging, which helps me fulfill my need to keep a scrapbook of my family.
Simply put, I miss running the most. And for the record, running with a jogging stroller does not count. I plan to get back to running, to train for the Warrior Dash and the Bisbee 1000. Maybe I'll even consider running a half marathon, it used to be on my list of things-to-do. Lets hope I can MAKE a little time for me!
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